Not a Team Player
May. 16th, 2006 11:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thessalianThis is something of a GIP, but I figure, hey, if I'm going to grump about my Sims, I may as well have the icon to suit. And yes, I have done this. Except with a buyable fire mod. Heeheehee.
With regard to that, we at least now know what memory my computer runs, thanks to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
nightskywarlock. Of course, I had a previous version of the thing he suggested, but it's always good to have the upgrade. Anyway, we now know that the Frankenbox runs the same kind of memory that dodgyhoodoo runs in Zim, and we also know that, despite assertions by cholten99, my mobo is not exactly hot shit. Zim runs faster, and dodgyhoodoo keeps bitching about Zim (though that may be software, I dunno). But I've got two free slots for memory and can't really afford to get a mobo bundle right now, so I'll have to make do. As long as it runs my damn Sims, I don't care. Frankly, I'd also like a new case because I hate the beige, but my money would honestly be better spent on a flat screen monitor that doesn't take up pretty much the entire vanity table. I should be able to get away from that experience with less than a £130 expenditure if I buy online (I've seen some pretty good bargains on TFT monitors, and have my eye on this one) or find a good deal on Tottenham Court Road (more likely than you'd think, plus a decided lack of delivery charges). Either way, it'd be nice to have the room. Though of course, my cash would probably be better spent on a few summer clothing odds and sods, but I really can't be arsed.
Still not king. The other Garou in the city are too busy screeching about one pack alpha's Kin (and girlfriend, whee) being possessed by a demon to remember that ranking Garou did say "Hey, could someone volunteer to find the Garou who didn't call in?" Of course, this demon thing is a little confusing anyway because, while the actual thread in which this character's body was possessed by an 'angel' (because of course, Demon would have it that there are no actual angels on-plane) states that the character was ritually slaughtered and the demon took possession of the body and the memories, current statements have the Kin (who died, from what I saw) not only still present in the body that was killed, but utterly unaware of the demon's presence. If this doesn't make sense to you, don't worry; it confuses the fuck out of me too because frankly, I didn't think Demon worked that way. But I'm choosing to believe that this angel/demon thing is kind of mentally screwed up the way only WoD characters and soap opera characters can be and actually believes that there's still a Jisa in there to the point that she's developed split personality disorder or some such bollocks.
I'm really beginning to wonder why I bother, and then remember that it's not so much the game as a whole that annoys me; it's that one player. See, on the one hand, there are some very nice people on that board; people who I'd love to interact with. Characters that are rich in personality quirks and weaknesses and all that sort of thing. Good solid characters. However, this one player is:
a) the ranking Garou in the city with apparently armies of Gafflings able to cast Rank 3 Gift-style effects, a Kin Mage for a boyfriend, an unexpected pregnancy and her bloody unicorn spirit totem following her around.
b) perky kid Mage who can just sneak out of her orphanage home at will and wanders the streets blowing holes in the Veil and the Masquerade without suffering any consequences, not to mention walking into people's houses uninvited and seeing Litany violations that she then mouths off about to anyone who happens to be passing.
c) this angel/demon former Kinfolk; Appearance 4 (Innocent), Charisma 4 (Inspires Protection), Pitiable, Innocent and Friendly Face Merits, "Even cries prettily without getting red or blotchy", and that's even when she's not wearing the angelic form with the godsdamned wings.
d) the Werewolf ST. Yes, this player is a bloody ST. Which got particularly amusing over the Litany violation thing. See, Windy was talking to my character about how 'people like [Grace]' were silly and how these two characters (who, one could only assume, fall into the 'people like Grace' category) were doing 'grown-up stuff and grown-up stuff is sticky'. Now, I figured that given all this, it's not a far jump to conclude that there's a certain amount of Litany violation going on, particularly when things get so tense after the 'grown-up stuff' is mentioned. But apparently this player and ST took it amiss, said there was no way Grace could know this and before you know it, I've had my first warning for using OOC knowledge IC. After this player/ST hybrid cow bitch-ranted at me, I had the main board runner trying to smooth things over by explaining that "we call this metagaming" like I'm about four. And I couldn't defend myself because apparently, you're not supposed to argue with ST judgement on these matters, instead keeping your mouth shut and taking a verbal whipping and ultimate condescension just because you and an ST who also plays at least three major characters in-game don't happen to agree on what you think your character would understand.
I was saying tododgyhoodoo last night that I might well be trying too hard to hold onto this game because I want to actually play something so badly. It's coming up to a year now since I basically just stopped playing altogether, and I miss it. I'm tired of being the ST / GM / whatever all the time, but I seem to be the only one of my now rather abbreviated social group that can actually keep a campaign going long-term. I don't know why. It's just how it is. So I'd like to be involved in something big but instead I get relegated to the sidelines while this ST/player hybrid woman's characters have the entire godsdamned universe revolve around them. But one of the players I chat to regularly informs me that I'm doing quite well for a character who's only been in play one board-time day; Grace has connections and blah blah blah. Yeah, but it doesn't help when the Werewolf ST is too busy twisting a veritable maelstrom of angst and plot around her characters to pay attention to anyone else. Yes, this is the one who turned around when board-time sunset hit (last week real-time) and said, "Okay, my ranking Werewolf sent out a message at about 2:30 pointing everyone at plot" and thus shut out at least three Garou who could have been there but had actually progressed in a bloody thread by that point.
*sigh* I don't want to quit yet. There are people I quite like on there. But I do want a chance to actually play. It doesn't look like I'm going to get one anytime soon, though, because of course the board now won't tick over to approaching midnight (a reasonable time for my character to wake up) until all this Garou shit is over and done with. And I'm hesitant to post-date a thread because of what I might miss if I do. It's all a bit of a mess, really. All I can realistically do at this point is email the XP ST and the Head ST and explain to them my plans to have Grace learn Spirit Speech from the spirit of her Discman, which has probably been awakened for some years due to Grace's Machine Affinity merit. Damnit, if I can't actually play anything, I will at least spend my damn XP on something useful.
Sorry about that. Needed a rant. And now, I'll go and do something else.
With regard to that, we at least now know what memory my computer runs, thanks to
nightskywarlock. Of course, I had a previous version of the thing he suggested, but it's always good to have the upgrade. Anyway, we now know that the Frankenbox runs the same kind of memory that dodgyhoodoo runs in Zim, and we also know that, despite assertions by cholten99, my mobo is not exactly hot shit. Zim runs faster, and dodgyhoodoo keeps bitching about Zim (though that may be software, I dunno). But I've got two free slots for memory and can't really afford to get a mobo bundle right now, so I'll have to make do. As long as it runs my damn Sims, I don't care. Frankly, I'd also like a new case because I hate the beige, but my money would honestly be better spent on a flat screen monitor that doesn't take up pretty much the entire vanity table. I should be able to get away from that experience with less than a £130 expenditure if I buy online (I've seen some pretty good bargains on TFT monitors, and have my eye on this one) or find a good deal on Tottenham Court Road (more likely than you'd think, plus a decided lack of delivery charges). Either way, it'd be nice to have the room. Though of course, my cash would probably be better spent on a few summer clothing odds and sods, but I really can't be arsed.Still not king. The other Garou in the city are too busy screeching about one pack alpha's Kin (and girlfriend, whee) being possessed by a demon to remember that ranking Garou did say "Hey, could someone volunteer to find the Garou who didn't call in?" Of course, this demon thing is a little confusing anyway because, while the actual thread in which this character's body was possessed by an 'angel' (because of course, Demon would have it that there are no actual angels on-plane) states that the character was ritually slaughtered and the demon took possession of the body and the memories, current statements have the Kin (who died, from what I saw) not only still present in the body that was killed, but utterly unaware of the demon's presence. If this doesn't make sense to you, don't worry; it confuses the fuck out of me too because frankly, I didn't think Demon worked that way. But I'm choosing to believe that this angel/demon thing is kind of mentally screwed up the way only WoD characters and soap opera characters can be and actually believes that there's still a Jisa in there to the point that she's developed split personality disorder or some such bollocks.
I'm really beginning to wonder why I bother, and then remember that it's not so much the game as a whole that annoys me; it's that one player. See, on the one hand, there are some very nice people on that board; people who I'd love to interact with. Characters that are rich in personality quirks and weaknesses and all that sort of thing. Good solid characters. However, this one player is:
a) the ranking Garou in the city with apparently armies of Gafflings able to cast Rank 3 Gift-style effects, a Kin Mage for a boyfriend, an unexpected pregnancy and her bloody unicorn spirit totem following her around.
b) perky kid Mage who can just sneak out of her orphanage home at will and wanders the streets blowing holes in the Veil and the Masquerade without suffering any consequences, not to mention walking into people's houses uninvited and seeing Litany violations that she then mouths off about to anyone who happens to be passing.
c) this angel/demon former Kinfolk; Appearance 4 (Innocent), Charisma 4 (Inspires Protection), Pitiable, Innocent and Friendly Face Merits, "Even cries prettily without getting red or blotchy", and that's even when she's not wearing the angelic form with the godsdamned wings.
d) the Werewolf ST. Yes, this player is a bloody ST. Which got particularly amusing over the Litany violation thing. See, Windy was talking to my character about how 'people like [Grace]' were silly and how these two characters (who, one could only assume, fall into the 'people like Grace' category) were doing 'grown-up stuff and grown-up stuff is sticky'. Now, I figured that given all this, it's not a far jump to conclude that there's a certain amount of Litany violation going on, particularly when things get so tense after the 'grown-up stuff' is mentioned. But apparently this player and ST took it amiss, said there was no way Grace could know this and before you know it, I've had my first warning for using OOC knowledge IC. After this player/ST hybrid cow bitch-ranted at me, I had the main board runner trying to smooth things over by explaining that "we call this metagaming" like I'm about four. And I couldn't defend myself because apparently, you're not supposed to argue with ST judgement on these matters, instead keeping your mouth shut and taking a verbal whipping and ultimate condescension just because you and an ST who also plays at least three major characters in-game don't happen to agree on what you think your character would understand.
I was saying to
dodgyhoodoo last night that I might well be trying too hard to hold onto this game because I want to actually play something so badly. It's coming up to a year now since I basically just stopped playing altogether, and I miss it. I'm tired of being the ST / GM / whatever all the time, but I seem to be the only one of my now rather abbreviated social group that can actually keep a campaign going long-term. I don't know why. It's just how it is. So I'd like to be involved in something big but instead I get relegated to the sidelines while this ST/player hybrid woman's characters have the entire godsdamned universe revolve around them. But one of the players I chat to regularly informs me that I'm doing quite well for a character who's only been in play one board-time day; Grace has connections and blah blah blah. Yeah, but it doesn't help when the Werewolf ST is too busy twisting a veritable maelstrom of angst and plot around her characters to pay attention to anyone else. Yes, this is the one who turned around when board-time sunset hit (last week real-time) and said, "Okay, my ranking Werewolf sent out a message at about 2:30 pointing everyone at plot" and thus shut out at least three Garou who could have been there but had actually progressed in a bloody thread by that point.*sigh* I don't want to quit yet. There are people I quite like on there. But I do want a chance to actually play. It doesn't look like I'm going to get one anytime soon, though, because of course the board now won't tick over to approaching midnight (a reasonable time for my character to wake up) until all this Garou shit is over and done with. And I'm hesitant to post-date a thread because of what I might miss if I do. It's all a bit of a mess, really. All I can realistically do at this point is email the XP ST and the Head ST and explain to them my plans to have Grace learn Spirit Speech from the spirit of her Discman, which has probably been awakened for some years due to Grace's Machine Affinity merit. Damnit, if I can't actually play anything, I will at least spend my damn XP on something useful.
Sorry about that. Needed a rant. And now, I'll go and do something else.
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Date: 2006-05-16 11:29 am (UTC)I'll search out some web addresses when I'm at home and either post them here or tell you via AIM tonight.
I'm currently debating whether or not I want to make a character and join a forum game, the main issue is that with the few previous games of that type I've played (one forum and two LJ), I'm really bad at keeping up with things and remembering to post.
So, I'm not sure whether or not I should try again, since I'm really wanting to do some more RPGing, and particularly wanting some WoD. But I'm not wanting to go through putting together a character, introducing them to a game, then losing interest and disappearing.
That, and I can't currently think of any particularly good character ideas.
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Date: 2006-05-16 12:21 pm (UTC)But thanks for the suggestions. I'll be happy to have a look, at least. Options are good.
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Date: 2006-05-16 03:24 pm (UTC)Seconded. At the very least, you need to get out've this one. This ST-and-multi-player sounds like a serious Drama Llama (a term I learned from
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Date: 2006-05-16 03:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-05-16 11:51 pm (UTC)On the numbers thing: If you're willing to have me given my previous reactions to forum games (I will try hard to keep up with it, and have less RP stuff now than I did then, which should help), and if I can come up with a decent character concept, then I'd probably be interested in joining a pack, especially if doing so would help out with the issues you're having.
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Date: 2006-05-17 12:43 am (UTC)But no. Apparently, Grace has to go on some bloody Umbral quest just to learn something that she could learn from any damn machine she touches. Which I wouldn't mind if it seemed like said ST was particularly interested in running anything but scenarios in which her characters can lock themselves in rooms and go "Woe is meeeeeeeeee!" Grah.