Management
Mar. 23rd, 2007 07:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thessalianWell, we tried pulling out a stick of the RAM I'm currently running. Matters improved for all of two minutes before the crawl began again. Basically, consensus is the motherboard is going to hell. This theory is backed up by the constantly borking or vanishing F drive, the iTunes skippage and general mishegoss of that nature. Which means that I need the damn thing replacing. Fair enough - it's ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
dodgyhoodoo's old motherboard, it's seen use, it's old and these things happen.
However. I can't afford to replace the motherboard. I particularly can't afford to replace the graphics card as well as the motherboard, which I'll probably have to do as the newer motherboards probably won't run the older graphics card. So basically, FFXI and Sims 2 will have to go hang until I can afford to replace what amounts to my entire system. Given the fact that I need to start setting up a nest-egg for the next unemployment horror (I'm a temp; it's going to happen one day), I won't actually be able to afford it. At all. Look, having enough money to contribute to the rent and suchlike is far more important than some stupid game. Or so I keep telling myself in a bid to keep from feeling utterly and completely miserable about the whole fucking situation.
After all, it's not like I'm ever going to be completely without computer access. If the motherboard on the Frankenbox dies completely, I have iMisc. My favourite tunes are on iStress, and it's not like I've been using iTunes on this machine anyway because of the whole skipping problem. And the stuff that I have to run on a PC isn't running so if I had to switch to iMisc as my primary computer, all I'd be losing is a decent keyboard and mouse. I can manage, and I suppose I'm going to have to.
I'm tired of most of my life being nothing more than 'managing'. I was coping a whole lot better when I had things to look forward to when I got home. Interior design. Monster nukage. That kind of thing. Now, though, I crawl through the shitstorm that is my day, I go home, I sleep until dinner, I eat, I chat to friends briefly, I very occasionally RP, and then I go to bed. Then I get up and do it all over again. My weekends are now pretty much just recovery time from hell-week - getting my back into halfway decent shape to survive another five days sitting in the horrible chair. It's depressing.
But I'll manage. I'm going to have to manage. It's not a permanent situation. Something'll come up so I can get a new motherboard. If nothing else, it's nine months 'til Christmas. And a hard-excavated streak of optimism is all that's keeping me remotely sane right now.
dodgyhoodoo's old motherboard, it's seen use, it's old and these things happen.However. I can't afford to replace the motherboard. I particularly can't afford to replace the graphics card as well as the motherboard, which I'll probably have to do as the newer motherboards probably won't run the older graphics card. So basically, FFXI and Sims 2 will have to go hang until I can afford to replace what amounts to my entire system. Given the fact that I need to start setting up a nest-egg for the next unemployment horror (I'm a temp; it's going to happen one day), I won't actually be able to afford it. At all. Look, having enough money to contribute to the rent and suchlike is far more important than some stupid game. Or so I keep telling myself in a bid to keep from feeling utterly and completely miserable about the whole fucking situation.
After all, it's not like I'm ever going to be completely without computer access. If the motherboard on the Frankenbox dies completely, I have iMisc. My favourite tunes are on iStress, and it's not like I've been using iTunes on this machine anyway because of the whole skipping problem. And the stuff that I have to run on a PC isn't running so if I had to switch to iMisc as my primary computer, all I'd be losing is a decent keyboard and mouse. I can manage, and I suppose I'm going to have to.
I'm tired of most of my life being nothing more than 'managing'. I was coping a whole lot better when I had things to look forward to when I got home. Interior design. Monster nukage. That kind of thing. Now, though, I crawl through the shitstorm that is my day, I go home, I sleep until dinner, I eat, I chat to friends briefly, I very occasionally RP, and then I go to bed. Then I get up and do it all over again. My weekends are now pretty much just recovery time from hell-week - getting my back into halfway decent shape to survive another five days sitting in the horrible chair. It's depressing.
But I'll manage. I'm going to have to manage. It's not a permanent situation. Something'll come up so I can get a new motherboard. If nothing else, it's nine months 'til Christmas. And a hard-excavated streak of optimism is all that's keeping me remotely sane right now.