Ooh look! Shinies!

[thessalian]

Predominantly for weaselbitch: Jin Wicked has finally started selling her rattie hammocks. And she ships overseas.

I have copy typing for the first time in nearly a year. Wow. Not that it's a hard task or anything; it's just been so long...

I don't want to go home. Too much work waiting, plus tired, cranky dodgyhoodoo who I can't lavish with attention because I don't have the time. Which might almost be able to slide out of my head for awhile under the morass of "Too tired but must work" if it weren't for the NaNoWidow stuff. Don't believe he's still doing roast dinner thing when he's as tired and hacked off as I am.

NaNoWriMo is rapidly losing its charms. I don't want to feel bad about this. I don't want to feel perennially knackered, or pressured to let people read the bloody project when they're done, and I really don't want to ignore my boyfriend on and off for a month. Right now, all I really want to do is curl up under the desk and cry. But I suppose it's just fatigue; that tends to fuck with the emotional control.

But I'm not going to curl up under the desk and cry. Frankly, I don't have time. I am going to finish my copy typing, try to get some other work done while I'm here, nap on public transport on the way home to try to get something resembling a second wind, and then get back to work, breaking for dinner at some point. There's not a whole lot else I can do.

I'll be glad when this is over.

Comments

[dodgyhoodoo.livejournal.com]

Don't fret about the "NaNo widower" thing, I just gave it as a reason for cooking a nice meal, that's all. Not cranky, too wobbly-headed to be cranky.

Besidea, a roast involves a lot less headbone-effort than some meals. Season bird with ridiculous amounts of Chef Paul stuff. Put bird in oven. Look at it after a while. Possibly put foil over bird. Add veg to oven. Repeat until cooked or burnt beyond recognition. Sorted.

[cholten99.livejournal.com]

*boggle*

If doing the NaNo isn't going to make you happy then why on Earth are you doing it?

Remove optional things from life that make you unhappy = happiness...

[thessalian.livejournal.com]

I'm sure I've explained the numerous reasons I'm doing this. Yes, it's hard. Yes, it's tiring. Yes, I'm tired right now. It doesn't mean that I automatically have to give up just because it's hard going. I'm not unhappy; I'm just tired and, given the amount of shit I've been going through the past few months, I'm a little disheartened and hacked off. This does not automatically equate to unhappiness in total, and frankly, I'd be even more unhappy if I gave up before I even started because I don't believe in quitting when things get hard, as you may well remember.

I know you're having a hard time with this concept, but hard work pays off. I want the payoff and it's worth a little bit of effort and tiredness to get it. Honestly, I know you're trying to be my friend here, but here's a hint: friends support their friends in their endeavours. They don't suggest they throw in the towel just because they're tired and indulging in their Gods-given right to whinge.