Consider This
Nov. 19th, 2004 08:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thessalianI've drafted this entry four or five times now, and none of it's right. I really want to go off on one but I don't feel safe enough to do so, because the last time I expressed even generalised vague annoyance, I got a text-based bitch-slap from someone I wasn't even 'talking' to. I'm just so pissed off right now.
Yeah, I deleted my last entry, and I'll probably delete the Christmas one too. I'm sorry if I'm having a bit of a bad time and possibly not expressing myself in the clear, blame-free way my friends have come to expect of me. I wish they would show me the same understanding as I have shown them every single goddamn time they've put their feet squarely in it and I haven't made an issue of it or even said a goddamn word to show how upset I was at the time. But either they don't feel I deserve that kind of consideration, they don't know how to show that kind of consideration, or they just can't be bothered.
Fine. I'm sure I'll be more forgiving when I've calmed down. I should be used to this by now. For the time being, I will exercise some serious self-control and maybe if I'm lucky I will get through the rising tide of fury without destroying anything valuable.
Yeah, I deleted my last entry, and I'll probably delete the Christmas one too. I'm sorry if I'm having a bit of a bad time and possibly not expressing myself in the clear, blame-free way my friends have come to expect of me. I wish they would show me the same understanding as I have shown them every single goddamn time they've put their feet squarely in it and I haven't made an issue of it or even said a goddamn word to show how upset I was at the time. But either they don't feel I deserve that kind of consideration, they don't know how to show that kind of consideration, or they just can't be bothered.
Fine. I'm sure I'll be more forgiving when I've calmed down. I should be used to this by now. For the time being, I will exercise some serious self-control and maybe if I'm lucky I will get through the rising tide of fury without destroying anything valuable.
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What's wrong?
Date: 2004-11-20 05:15 am (UTC)Re: What's wrong?
Date: 2004-11-20 12:59 pm (UTC)