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dodgyhoodoo
Mar. 4th, 2007 02:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thessalianWe now have an Xbox 360. We predominantly have an Xbox 360 because weaselbitch followed in my footsteps and suckered someone (namely dodgyhoodoo) into the wonderful world of Vana'diel via giftage. Read: she got dodgyhoodoo Final Fantasy XI on the 360 as an early birthday present.
Now why, you may ask, did this necessitate purchasing an entirely new console? Well, because the alternative would have been to buy a new PC and forweaselbitch to have got him the PC version instead. Zim borked awhile back and I got the salvageable parts for the Frankenbox and on the whole, dodgyhoodoo seems happy enough to stick with Skanklet (PowerBook) for the time being. And decent PCs, when last I checked, were still a little bit more expensive than the Xbox 360. Plus, Dead Rising and the fact that Sony just keeps shooting itself in the face as re the PS3. Therefore, Xbox 360.
I trust that we can absorb the cost of this when I get the promised money from my mother. I know full well thatdodgyhoodoo wouldn't have bought it if he didn't think we could afford it. I do get a little bit nervy because it is a lot of money that could have gone on necessities, but I trust him. I'll feel a whole lot better about it when I'm employed again.
But then the question becomes: if I trust him to know what state our finances are in and to budget accordingly, why am I so resistant to the idea of him paying for my subscription to the stupid game for this quarter when I am incapable and he insists it's doable? Not to mention that it's so very much less than what he just spent on the console?
The answer's fairly simple - overabundance of pride, for the most part. I mean, I'm not earning at this point, and things are expensive. I feel bad enough tacking smokes onto the shopping list, but know I'd go batshit if I tried to quit at this point (a state with which he can empathise, I believe). I know I get a great deal of pleasure out of FFXI. I know it's worth the money. However, I know it's worth my money. I do not want to be little more than a resource drain. Besides, it's a lot of futzing about getting different card details on the stupid system which I'll have to change later and all told, it's a great big pain in the neck. On the whole, it doesn't seem worth the bother for something that's going to make me feel even more burdensome than I already do, when I'll have the money in my account to cover it within a week.
Still, I will admit that I miss the game and it doesn't make it any easier to havedodgyhoodoo poking me about my overabundance of pride. It particularly doesn't help to have weaselbitch endorsing the nagging to just let dodgyhoodoo pay for the damn subscription already. I have no idea what I want at this point and on the whole, all I want to do is go back to bed and not think about it for awhile. And to be employed soon, please.
weaselbitch followed in my footsteps and suckered someone (namely dodgyhoodoo) into the wonderful world of Vana'diel via giftage. Read: she got dodgyhoodoo Final Fantasy XI on the 360 as an early birthday present.Now why, you may ask, did this necessitate purchasing an entirely new console? Well, because the alternative would have been to buy a new PC and for
weaselbitch to have got him the PC version instead. Zim borked awhile back and I got the salvageable parts for the Frankenbox and on the whole, dodgyhoodoo seems happy enough to stick with Skanklet (PowerBook) for the time being. And decent PCs, when last I checked, were still a little bit more expensive than the Xbox 360. Plus, Dead Rising and the fact that Sony just keeps shooting itself in the face as re the PS3. Therefore, Xbox 360.I trust that we can absorb the cost of this when I get the promised money from my mother. I know full well that
dodgyhoodoo wouldn't have bought it if he didn't think we could afford it. I do get a little bit nervy because it is a lot of money that could have gone on necessities, but I trust him. I'll feel a whole lot better about it when I'm employed again.But then the question becomes: if I trust him to know what state our finances are in and to budget accordingly, why am I so resistant to the idea of him paying for my subscription to the stupid game for this quarter when I am incapable and he insists it's doable? Not to mention that it's so very much less than what he just spent on the console?
The answer's fairly simple - overabundance of pride, for the most part. I mean, I'm not earning at this point, and things are expensive. I feel bad enough tacking smokes onto the shopping list, but know I'd go batshit if I tried to quit at this point (a state with which he can empathise, I believe). I know I get a great deal of pleasure out of FFXI. I know it's worth the money. However, I know it's worth my money. I do not want to be little more than a resource drain. Besides, it's a lot of futzing about getting different card details on the stupid system which I'll have to change later and all told, it's a great big pain in the neck. On the whole, it doesn't seem worth the bother for something that's going to make me feel even more burdensome than I already do, when I'll have the money in my account to cover it within a week.
Still, I will admit that I miss the game and it doesn't make it any easier to have
dodgyhoodoo poking me about my overabundance of pride. It particularly doesn't help to have weaselbitch endorsing the nagging to just let dodgyhoodoo pay for the damn subscription already. I have no idea what I want at this point and on the whole, all I want to do is go back to bed and not think about it for awhile. And to be employed soon, please.