Snap, Crackle, Pop

I think I broke them.

( Mage: the Final Frontier )

It's not just there either. I seem to have broken Pietro. According to Toos, "Reinhard is going to step in and sort it all out". I don't know what this means, but apparently it boils down to "being a different kind of arsehole". I fear the next 7th Sea session...

Success v Happiness

Courtesy cholten99

Property: This is the place you live, the things you own and the things you consume (such as meals out, holidays, etc). It's not down to comparing what you have to other people it's whether or not you subjectively feel that you have enough to make you happy.
I share with cholten99. I'd much prefer a bigger room, seeing as it doubles as a study and I am a total slob, but I really only have myself to blame. The situation works out well because I have company, and there are few places I can afford that would let me keep a cat. So overall, I'm okay with it, particularly since I got the posters up. I mean, if I wasn't, I'd move.

I'd give myself 6 out of 10.


Job: Again this not about how much your job pays and what lever you have reached. It's subjectively whether or not you feel your job is in someway "successful" as you yourself define it. If being paid minimum wage to work for a charity works for you then go you! If slogging your guts out to climb the corporate ladder or staring into space while manning a till is as much as you feel you want then that works too - you decide.
My job has its stresses, but overall it's a good position. I like knowing I'm helping people, and most of all knowing that I make people's lives easier, particularly those people whose lives are, due to the diagnosis either they or their family have received, more difficult than any life should be. It pays well, I get two 'easy days' a week, and there's a minimum of arseholes. Anyway, if I hate it, I can always find another job.

I'd give myself 8 out of 10.


Relationship: I'm recently single, living with my ex-boyfriend, and generally feeling like I'm living a Queen of Wands strip sometimes. I am relatively happy being single, but this is mainly because my relationships always go to hell and the people who actually interest me are, for some reason, unattainable. I don't tend to think about this.

I'd give myself 6 out of 10.


Fun: This is hanging out with your friends, going out to pubs, clubs, pictures, gaming nights, etc and other great ways filling your free time with mostly social activities.
I'm not a very social person, but lately I've been more social than I ever thought I would be. I have friends and I like them, and hanging out with them is fun. It's all new and kind of scary, but I'm happy with it.

I'd give myself 9 out of 10.

Personal improvement: This is bettering yourself in mental and physical ways.
I'm not a physical person, but I'm not terribly uncomfortable with my body; if I was, I'd go back to the swimming, quit smoking or both. Mentally, I expand my skills list as often as I can -- I read things that actually make me think, and next month is the NoMo, which I'm hoping will kick-start my creativity. I'm slowly expanding my social set, which is another sort of mental challenge for someone who finds people scary. There's always something going on that challenges me mentally, so this is going exactly as I want.

I'd give myself 10 out of 10.

Purpose: This is something larger than yourself that you spend effort working towards. For some people this can be their job, for others it's helping others and for yet others it's being in some way creative (writing, art, etc).
See above. I am not sure exactly what I was put on this planet to do, but I'm doing the things I want to do. I'm creative as often as I can be, I do my job to the best of my ability (something not a lot of people can say), I am comfortable with my place in the universe most of the time. Oh, sure, sometimes I get depressed, but it's not because I don't think I'm worth anything these days.

I'd give myself 10 out of 10.

I think the main thing about this meme-thing is that, in all cases, if I was really unhappy, I would change it. If I really wanted to be in a relationship, I'd pursue one, and "unattainable" can go bugger itself. If I hated my job, I'd go find a new one. If I hated where I lived, I'd move out. I seek personal improvement whenever I feel the need to do so. If I didn't feel I had a purpose, I'd be back in fucking therapy. If you're not happy -- if you can't live with the choice you've made -- go and make another one. It seems simple enough to me.

Says the person who won't even ring in sick when she is...

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Dear Dr Slevin

Thank you for finally going home as re the pain caused by your recent dental work. Your stupid appointment was late, so he can go take a flying fuck at a rolling donut for all we care. You have a busy schedule and he has to respect that. I will cover for you; it is my job. He will know better than to be late again.

Dear Dr Slater

It is not my fault that the library no longer carries the New England Journal of Medicine in hard copy. Neither is it my fault that my screamingly busy schedule prevented me from finding this out until fifteen minutes before you breezed in the door. Please don't grump "Whatever" at me; I did my best.

Dear Dr Propper

Please stop using my desk as your personal junk pit. It is my personal junk pit, and you're getting my piles all messed up. I still suspect you of being the reason I lost the courier's number for the second or third time this week. Have a little respect for your secretary's personal space, please.

Regards,

Your hardworking secretary.


Dear Deity of Questionable Existence

Pop Will Eat Itself have apparently got back together to play three gigs in the near future. One of them is in Shepherd's Bush. This may actually prove you exist. Now, if I can get through this gig migraine-free, it will be certain. Thank you, thank you, and gracias thank you!