People Who Need People

Finished S7. Caleb died too easy, but that's what you get for bringing in such a fabulous villain more than halfway through the season. Gotta say; watching Giles play D&D run by Andrew is the funniest. Thing. Ever. "I used to be a highly respected member of the Watcher community; now I'm a wounded dwarf with the mystical power of a doily". Nice to see a girl kicking RPG-geek arse in mainstream entertainment, though. On the whole, I liked the way Angel ended a lot better. Unsatisfying, yes, the way Angel ended -- but real. It wasn't like some old-school war movie where there has to be a happy ending and only enough death to jerk a few tears, the way Buffy was.

The snipe thing seems to have died in the cold light of day. No Mage because Andy O won't be able to make it and I remember the last time I tried to run it without Skank. I could do it, but I'd rather not. So maybe 7th Sea and maybe not. But frankly, if we're all going to be juvenile and get pissy about the whole damn thing, maybe I'd just rather not. Then again, I'm really not up for the whole human contact thing right now anyway.

See, it seems like whatever I do, I keep screwing it up. Yesterday's outing with thm, for example. So he's nervous of me? I can't necessarily blame one or the other of us, but I don't get what I'm doing that makes him that nervous. I apparently really am that fucking scary, and it galls me. Between cholten99's mother and thm and last night's e-mail bitch-fight, I'm having a hard time seeing myself as fully functioning member of society. I hate the whole damn thing, and just want to lock myself in my room for the rest of eternity.

So here it is: I am not a people person. I have never been a people person. I apparently will never be a people person. And this may be just bad mood talking, but all the same, I think I'll leave the talking to people thing to those who're actually any damn good at it.