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Okay, let's dispense with the bullshit, shall we?
Item: I've been off my meds for the best part of a week now. This is mostly due to a bureaucratic cock-up on the part of the doctor's office I have been frequenting since my return to these shores. I don't know where they learned to run an office situation but even I at my worst last year wasn't that screwed up when it came to making the arrangements that mattered. Yes, it has been fucking with my moods, my sleep patterns, my appetite and the rest of me. Frankly, I didn't care much at the time - probably because of the havoc the whole going off them wreaked with my moods. I understand Lily a little better now, I think. What's probably worse is that I don't want to go back on them. No matter how bad I feel now, no matter how much I'm reverting to my mental and emotional state before I left the UK last year, I don't want to go back on them. Part of this is my mother, I'm sorry to say, since Mamo-chan has raised his opinion of her greatly since her rescuing me from the South and the motorbike accident. She is not keen on the idea of me needing meds and would be more than keen to see me off them if it wasn't for the doctor's opinions. Never mind that the damn things work. (Oh, if this ever finds its way into Mamo-chan's log, which my mother still reads, he is a dead man.)
Item: Ryu. Is it just that guys are adept at missing the point, or is it him? All I am asking for, in my own indirect way which stems from my total lack of self-esteem, is to be ... well, asked how I am properly! As it stands now, I feel like my ability to vent to Ryu has been killed off by his attitude. Maybe that's what he wants. I don't know. I guess I shouldn't do anything drastic about it and I'm still willing to listen if he needs to vent to me, but I get the impression that ... well, I just don't even know anymore.
Item: The film "Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone" (and reverse-peace-sign to all you Americans who don't know alchemic myths from a hole in a tree - that's what it's called) was good and yet ... well, you can really only understand it if you read the book first. Problem is, then you know what the film had to skip to make it work within a time frame. So either way, you enjoy it and are screwed at the same time. My favourite bits were Madam Hooch and the Quidditch match, Hagrid (okay, I was dubious about Robbie Coltrane at first, but he was [excuse the pun, please] magic in that role), Ron Weasley (well, all the Weasleys were pretty good, if I think about it - Percy was well cast), Draco Malfoy and the sets in general. Things I didn't like were Hermione (she became so loveable in the book but in the film...), Professor McGonagall (Maggie Smith didn't do bad things with the part, per se, but she has too old a face for the role and it messed with me some), Mrs Norris (they could have at least given her name...) and their missing out of some key bits of dialogue, or at least bits of dialogue I found key. Fine, I was mouthing quotes verbatim from the book most of the way through the film, but that's me all over. And most of my friends, too.
Item: Mum had to ask me when I got into hockey, as I've been up late every Wednesday night this month to catch the live games they televise on Channel 5 - hey, C5 did something to redeem itself after refusing to show 'Daria' anymore. I explained to her that a native Californian reintroduced me to the game. Somehow, I think this amused her. I wish I had someone to talk hockey with, though. Ah well, you never know your luck.
Thessaly
Item: I've been off my meds for the best part of a week now. This is mostly due to a bureaucratic cock-up on the part of the doctor's office I have been frequenting since my return to these shores. I don't know where they learned to run an office situation but even I at my worst last year wasn't that screwed up when it came to making the arrangements that mattered. Yes, it has been fucking with my moods, my sleep patterns, my appetite and the rest of me. Frankly, I didn't care much at the time - probably because of the havoc the whole going off them wreaked with my moods. I understand Lily a little better now, I think. What's probably worse is that I don't want to go back on them. No matter how bad I feel now, no matter how much I'm reverting to my mental and emotional state before I left the UK last year, I don't want to go back on them. Part of this is my mother, I'm sorry to say, since Mamo-chan has raised his opinion of her greatly since her rescuing me from the South and the motorbike accident. She is not keen on the idea of me needing meds and would be more than keen to see me off them if it wasn't for the doctor's opinions. Never mind that the damn things work. (Oh, if this ever finds its way into Mamo-chan's log, which my mother still reads, he is a dead man.)
Item: Ryu. Is it just that guys are adept at missing the point, or is it him? All I am asking for, in my own indirect way which stems from my total lack of self-esteem, is to be ... well, asked how I am properly! As it stands now, I feel like my ability to vent to Ryu has been killed off by his attitude. Maybe that's what he wants. I don't know. I guess I shouldn't do anything drastic about it and I'm still willing to listen if he needs to vent to me, but I get the impression that ... well, I just don't even know anymore.
Item: The film "Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone" (and reverse-peace-sign to all you Americans who don't know alchemic myths from a hole in a tree - that's what it's called) was good and yet ... well, you can really only understand it if you read the book first. Problem is, then you know what the film had to skip to make it work within a time frame. So either way, you enjoy it and are screwed at the same time. My favourite bits were Madam Hooch and the Quidditch match, Hagrid (okay, I was dubious about Robbie Coltrane at first, but he was [excuse the pun, please] magic in that role), Ron Weasley (well, all the Weasleys were pretty good, if I think about it - Percy was well cast), Draco Malfoy and the sets in general. Things I didn't like were Hermione (she became so loveable in the book but in the film...), Professor McGonagall (Maggie Smith didn't do bad things with the part, per se, but she has too old a face for the role and it messed with me some), Mrs Norris (they could have at least given her name...) and their missing out of some key bits of dialogue, or at least bits of dialogue I found key. Fine, I was mouthing quotes verbatim from the book most of the way through the film, but that's me all over. And most of my friends, too.
Item: Mum had to ask me when I got into hockey, as I've been up late every Wednesday night this month to catch the live games they televise on Channel 5 - hey, C5 did something to redeem itself after refusing to show 'Daria' anymore. I explained to her that a native Californian reintroduced me to the game. Somehow, I think this amused her. I wish I had someone to talk hockey with, though. Ah well, you never know your luck.
Thessaly
