hearing my mother's voice inside my head saying, "Don't you start. You don't deserve to cry about this".

...My lack of god.

Y'know, over on theatrical_muse, last week's question was "Who would you like to see get their final comeuppance? Who is it and just what would you do with them?" Right now, I'm having one of those moments when Jezebel is the person I'd most like to see getting comeuppance, but I can't think of anything big enough to fit what she's done to you.

Never let anyone tell you that you don't deserve to cry, or to have any other honest feeling. You're better than that. You're better than her.